nothing

as we grow older our innocence also goes i dont where..the world becomes a very complex puzzle. in school we could fight with our friends and we have a big fight and the next minute we are friends again but not anymore, a small difference of opinion or a slip of tongue however close you are thats it. there ends the realtion. then there the others you have no idea of...one day they are like wow the next day you dont know what happened we never see them. then there are the other who never leave. why is it very complicated as we grow older. the relatonship is supposed to get easier but na they become more complex. nothing in life s the same.
you got to worry when moving along with our age or older they are always judging us and we are doing the same. but when we were younger we were busy enjoying everything around that we got very little time to complain or judge another.
if growing is what this is then its better to be a kid itself. i am not an escapist but when grow as an adult we are to progress but we dont we can argue a lot but thats the truth.

parenting

i hear people screaming esp in US(Indians)...its very dificult to grow kids right, here in the US..i ask, dont they have good kids here?...i am sure they do..its the technique that u use to develop the kid that matters.
i keep watching kids their moves, language etc...as kids they are just reflection of their parents...some of them very shy( parents very protective...dont give confidence to the kids), some kids very smart unfortunately parents are ready to do everything for them...there is one lady here, her daughter, she is extermely very smart...she comes for dance class along with my daughter...i tell u that kid is very smart for her age but each time a new step is taught in class, before the teacher can give instructions, the mother barges in i will teach her at home...i mean this unknowingly is going to form a thought in the mind of the kids MY MOM WILL DO FOR ME. this is good in many areas but not much as it s going to hamper the kids confidence...
parenting is not an easy skill as giving birth to a child ...you dont need 24/7 attention to the kid esp after 3...but when u watch watch carefully..and learn about ur child...many of us parents dont really know our kids y b'cos we dont give PROPER attention when needed...
i see parents wanting the kids sing on stage dance on stage etc when the kid has absolutely no talent in...they dont really see what the child is good at..
its the responsibility of the parent to discover his child and develop the child accordingly. its in reality very easy if u r sharp and watchful and has a desire to grow ur child healthy.
what ur child id is what u have put in as manure to him as a child....all of us are what we were brought up as.....we are first reflection of our childhood...so parents have to take very good care to grow the kid well...its a huge great responsibility....please use it cautiously if u want a healthy happy adult....rememeber ur kids key is in ur hands till she or he is 13..till that time u help develop her well...

the boiling blood

i am an optimist..a major one. but as time pass by i am toning down. as a young girl i was out to capture the whole world. i would feel that i can do anything, there was nothing that could stop me. i never realised that there are things beyond our control that could write our destiny. now i know how much ever we try there is something called our fate line that drives us.

as a young girl i wanted to be everything. i knew i had the drive, the courage, and the power to be. i was always flying on horse back. but as i grew older i knew i had travel along with the wind, it was too strong to fight against. i made some wrong decisions and god made some for me..

when i look back what i was and what i am now is as different as the day and the night. my sister tells me what we are today is what we aspired to...well i never wanted tb...i never aspired to be here all locked up from all sides...may be the path i took might have been wrong but i am ready to correct it..but how ? i have no knowledge. where to start ? no idea...but i know one thing i will come out again flying on my horse back this time for real...

yep golmaal

as the title says life - a golmaal...atleast i know my life is. where i started and where i am now. been through a lot and still going strong in a rollacoaster. man! when will it stop? i know my life and its problems are nothing when compared to yours darling, but i see urs like the moon in the sky and mine as the ant through a magnifying glass. well thats me.
my life revolves around two things my sister and my daughter..i know nothing else and want nothing to do with anything else.
i wish i had a job because now i get up blank nothing to look forward to. i hate leaving my brain idle. it has nothing to think of , nothing prepare for, nothing, nothing at all. i just float with the time and i have no control over it.
you know i make so many plans i draw chart for executing it unfortunately something, a force, drives it away. great astro s say its the star i am born in..i ve always been fighting with fate..lives been a struggles and a lot of it. i sometimes wish i cud tear myself into a hulk but thats all in movies here on earth we cant do that..no matter what happens we have to put on a sweet costume and on that put a make up called smile....
i ve made a lot of friends and few enemies but i cud never make a close friend..i ve always been traveling places and i am not a person into site seeing. i like to have friends and be with them have fun unfortunately i have never stayed in a place long enough for that. the worst thing is you come from one culture to another and when you are almost accustomed to it you move to another meaning you have nothing of any..a wagabond a nomad horrible atleast they move in groups so they just have to adjust to climate but me to everything...
its been a long journey from the dot to now but still i have nt met you my part where are you how will i know you..are you out there or gone to make a home for us in paradise....dont you think its high time to reveal yourself ???