why is it like this ?

i love being a woman. the best gift god could ever bestow a human with. we have everything gifted to us for a normal survival (not exactly made for war and other turmoils). we are curved, very strong mentally(which is why we live longer than our men)...i love all of this but.....

those days are horrible. i have ,thank god, never experienced pain even for my delivery not even a little( the birth of unni was the best) but the mental thing that i ve to go through during these days, they are horrible. some months, i am very very happy, loving and caring man! i am the best. i love this feeling. i love being happy and making others feel like a human for ones( i am by nature a horrible critique..i dont know if its becoz i am a virgo but i hate it...), i am the best. but it s those other days i am worried about..those days when i turn to be a witch,- i hate everything around me, everything irritates me, i get irritated and angry(i rather wish i cried than went violent). even the minutest thing will hurt me( my hubby finds this the best time to pick on me...beleive he gets enough and more for it if on one of these days he would want to argue....pavam he is the best but, he is a nut for not understanding me during these times...especially even after 5 years of marriage...so you can understand how smart he is or is it that all men are like that. )

girls out there , trust me when i tell you this, physical pain is 1000 times better than this mental unstability. atleast people will know you are hurting but these even you dont know how you are going to react.....man! i wish i had physical pain than these mental issues. you know! during these horrible time you dont know what you say and the other person would nt know the problem and that breaks the friendship....it happened to me ...i had a very nice friend whom i used to confide to..unfortunately, there was an issue regarding the party and i got pissed, i mean the issue was so very small, very minor but i blew it out of proportion really badly and said things to him and his wife which i would never ever do in the normal state..i cant go appologize for what i said they will never understand any of it....once a thread is broken its always going to have a bump even if u tie it so i never tried to...

i mean, man! this is horrible. u can think nothing and even if u say something it will be foolish my god i wish i had the physical pain...lucky all of you out there who has physical pain than what i have to go through. crying is also fine i would that is great than what i go through.