Hello There,
I have been wanting to write to you for sometime now. I wanted to share this lingering feeling in me with you. Loneliness! Have you ever felt this? I have so many people around me and yet, I feel alone. I do not always feel this but when it strikes, Its too hard to get over it. As you know I am mostly a self made person and yet I feel that I am missing a bigger part of me. And time is no friend of mine. When I wanted it to run faster it never did and now its running at the speed of light, 13 years have passed in the blink of my eye.
I do not know where to look to find that person. Frankly, I am scared of having a relationship. How could I ever know if it will work out between us? I do not want to take a chance on our lives and yet I yearn for companionship. How so funny my stupid heart is?!
I hear so many stories of cupid strike but how come no cupid around me?! Oh Mr. Cupid, please don't strike at that wrong person. I have had enough of that.
I guess, its just like the seasons. You can never appreciate sunshine if you live near the equator. I would have never understood or valued the meaning of a 'Life Partner', if I did not feel lonely. I am so happy for all those who have found their loved ones. There is nothing in this world that can take the place of a partner; no parent, no kid nor money. I guess that is why Eve was created. Adam had everything and yet was not fully happy till Eve came. And then you know the story.....! Still, I think Adam was happy since Eve hopefully was there with him in the wilderness. Hopefully I am no Eve but a Ruth.
Now the big question, where do I look for, to find my Adam? I have never gone on a date. I tried the online stuff, but I hate online. How can you know someone by reading their profile? How can you go out with a complete stranger? (this coming from a woman who had an arranged but failed marriage..Oh the irony!)
Anyway, in all this I learned one thing. Life is not as easy as it is portrayed to be. Loneliness helps you appreciate relationship. It makes you want to be a better person for your would be partner. It lets you live in hope that you will find that person soon..hoping that Life does not lie!
Love Jes.
I have been wanting to write to you for sometime now. I wanted to share this lingering feeling in me with you. Loneliness! Have you ever felt this? I have so many people around me and yet, I feel alone. I do not always feel this but when it strikes, Its too hard to get over it. As you know I am mostly a self made person and yet I feel that I am missing a bigger part of me. And time is no friend of mine. When I wanted it to run faster it never did and now its running at the speed of light, 13 years have passed in the blink of my eye.
I do not know where to look to find that person. Frankly, I am scared of having a relationship. How could I ever know if it will work out between us? I do not want to take a chance on our lives and yet I yearn for companionship. How so funny my stupid heart is?!
I hear so many stories of cupid strike but how come no cupid around me?! Oh Mr. Cupid, please don't strike at that wrong person. I have had enough of that.
I guess, its just like the seasons. You can never appreciate sunshine if you live near the equator. I would have never understood or valued the meaning of a 'Life Partner', if I did not feel lonely. I am so happy for all those who have found their loved ones. There is nothing in this world that can take the place of a partner; no parent, no kid nor money. I guess that is why Eve was created. Adam had everything and yet was not fully happy till Eve came. And then you know the story.....! Still, I think Adam was happy since Eve hopefully was there with him in the wilderness. Hopefully I am no Eve but a Ruth.
Now the big question, where do I look for, to find my Adam? I have never gone on a date. I tried the online stuff, but I hate online. How can you know someone by reading their profile? How can you go out with a complete stranger? (this coming from a woman who had an arranged but failed marriage..Oh the irony!)
Anyway, in all this I learned one thing. Life is not as easy as it is portrayed to be. Loneliness helps you appreciate relationship. It makes you want to be a better person for your would be partner. It lets you live in hope that you will find that person soon..hoping that Life does not lie!
Love Jes.
