How do I meet you?

Hello There,
I have been wanting to write to you for sometime now. I wanted to share this lingering feeling in me with you. Loneliness! Have you ever felt this? I have so many people around me and yet, I feel alone. I do not always feel this but when it strikes, Its too hard to get over it. As you know I am mostly a self made person and yet I feel that I am missing a bigger part of me. And time is no friend of mine. When I wanted it to run faster it never did and now its running at the speed of light, 13 years have passed in the blink of my eye.
I do not know where to look to find that person. Frankly, I am scared of having a relationship. How could I ever know if it will work out between us? I do not want to take a chance on our lives and yet I yearn for companionship. How so funny my stupid heart is?!
I hear so many stories of cupid strike but how come no cupid around me?! Oh Mr. Cupid, please don't strike at that wrong person. I have had enough of that.
I guess, its just like the seasons. You can never appreciate sunshine if you live near the equator. I would have never understood or valued the meaning of a 'Life Partner', if I did not feel lonely. I am so happy for all those who have found their loved ones. There is nothing in this world that can take the place of a partner; no parent, no kid  nor money. I guess that is why Eve was created. Adam had everything and yet was not fully happy till Eve came. And then you know the story.....! Still, I think Adam was happy since Eve hopefully was there with him in the wilderness. Hopefully I am no Eve but a Ruth.
Now the big question, where do I look for, to find my Adam? I have never gone on a date. I tried the online stuff, but I hate online. How can you know someone by reading their profile? How can you go out with a complete stranger? (this coming from a woman who had an arranged but failed marriage..Oh the irony!)
Anyway, in all this I learned one thing. Life is not as easy as it is portrayed to be. Loneliness helps you appreciate relationship. It makes you want to be a better person for your would be partner. It lets you live in hope that you will find that person soon..hoping that Life does not lie!
Love Jes.

Facebook has made me forget to write

Even a small inspiration used to make me write pages and pages but now I tend to express my emotions however big in a one liner on facebook. Sad! May be its because my emotions are easily shared with my friends on facebook. I feel facebook has taken away from me the urge to write; The want to think; The thirst to color my thoughts in garlands of words. How much has technology changed my life! Yes, it has done great things for us. I can instantly converse with my father who is continents away face to face within seconds. Its has made the world a smaller place but at what cost? I do not see anyone relaxed. We all want 'I' things, mambo jambos and jargons that make our lives comfortable but then we run around to pay our bills for the comforts we bargained for, rarely able to hold them for more than a day and sing to it "You are so beautiful". Everything that comes into the market becomes our necessity. 

I miss those days where mothers sat outside homes and enjoyed the breeze while the kids ran around the house. When doors were always open for neighbors and friends. 

Emotions have changed from I am happy to :) ! I guess this is life! Do you?