Sunday, October 12, 2008

Stop killing in the name of religion

How much we have changed know! The world has changed a lot in our sight. Those of us are who are warriors and shrewed like King David can only survive here. Its really not that easy no more. I wish our grandmother EVE didnt eat that apple! We would have been in a different world now.
I was reading in Yahoo, in Iraq they are killing Christians. Dont these people know that they are killing their own. We all believe in different shapes and beliefs but are we not under the same sun. We breathe the same air, everthing the same.Just because some people call God "Almighty" others "Krishna"and others "Allah" does that make any difference? In our Bible God says " Let your belief save you". Why do we do this ? why do we kill others for all these. We dont see the reality. Are we crazy ?..You dont save someone by killing that person. If you think your belief is better than the other persons then make him understand if he does nt, let him live his life, why to kill? Do something about the pollution, poverty, orphans.
I was watching a friend. She has a lot of clothes( its nice, girls are crazy about it) but when she said I have a closet full..I dont know now where to keep these new ones. I was hurt so much. You have no idea how much I was hurt! If you already have a lot then use your money to help those who are dying from hunger.
I dont know if I will be like her if I had that much money. Since I dont have so much money I may be thinking that I should try to use money for those kids who are suffering and all. I can never be St Theresa but may be after I feel secure I want to help others also. Esp kids. I cant think of a world without helping them.
I wish all my friends would also help out.
We can never be like those great people who have dedicated their life for the poor and sick but something, a little can go a long way.
Anyways! where was I friend? Yes, killing others for the silly reason of religion. I AM ALSO AGAINST ABORTION. esp if its a married person doing this crime to a healthy life inside her. Please dont kill. Life is a blessing from God. Bear God and live.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

a Scrap

how we struggle to survive. I was looking around in my office. I see a lot things. Its new to me because of a lie. Since I work in USA, I work along with whites, Blacks and ofcourse us (I am a pure bred Indian. I was closely watching the scenario and seeing how much people do to please these whites to retain job. What all we do !ya its not bread and milk, its cold sweat that flows everyday like blood to keep our jobs intact. Noone know how long you are there in the seat. As long as we can we try. For that we will do anything. There are no genuine person out there, including me.
When I was younger..life was black and white for me but now I see that there are in between colors too.
I was against dowry but now I know without that there is no going about( atleast in Indian community). I know you are going to be offended by this but I mean it. Dowry does not mean the money that is given during marriage but there is a lot more to it. If I am from a poor family, I have an illness, I have a pimple-I am not worthy to be your bride. See this is also dowry. I used to say "I wont marry a man who ask dowry". I never met one who did not ask dowry..literally. Some lucky ones did end up with those men. but not the others. These lucky girls will ask "Who said there are no men who wont ask dowry?". C'mon..open your eyes and look outside your well !

I believed "Yours is the world"..now I know I am part of the world. I have to be a Roman in Rome. any Philosophy against this, keep it in your pocket!. You have to face what life throws at you. Think the big picture. Some of us are lucky but. They get what they want in life. I have seen that. But others they have to struggle.
I thought " Where there is a will there is a way". Now I know many of us will but way is very difficult. See the idiom applies only for brilliant kids in school...not all of us are rank holders, it applies to skilled workers..not all of us have that much skill.
Slowly life is passing by. I am 32 now. Life moves so fast. I feel it was yesterday that I was in school and college but its not. I learned a lot. But I cant go back apply the learned formula again in my youth. I will learn new things when I get old but I dont know where I will apply.
I learned one thing though that makes sense..lives lessons are just lessons learned. Very few of us get to apply it again.So just go with the flow.
I dont know where I am going with this blog...

Are you the MOTHER ?

I havent keyed anything lately. I was talking to my college friend Visu and then he said "Jessa I was going throught your Blog....". It is then I realised I havent written anything lately.
So many things to write. Happenings in life are like waterfall from all around you, dont know from where to start.
I have to confess, I hate lying. Just hate it. In life I have lied twice. Atleast, thats all I can remember. Both the times to survive. Not to hurt anyone or take away anything from anyone. Just to survive.
You know, just as I have mentioned in my other blog, life is full of ups and downs. It is more downs when you dont have direction in life.
I am writing this mainly for you and me, esp if you are a parent like me. You are lucky if you had a wonderful upbringing. But if you didnt and is like me who had to struggle all through life then join the club.
I keep telling myself.."what happened to me should not happen to my kid". You know, I had no one to give me directions when I was growing up. Because of which even today I am learning the maps. I had to take the twist and turns in raw sense. I was a very bright kid with a lot of potential(I am not boasting)but didnt know how to use it. There was no one to show me the way. I was good in singing, talent was discouraged. I was good in dancing, dancing was for Hindus (I respect all religion and beleive there is only one God)or for Micheal Jackson. I was a good athlete, but sports was shunned. I did not have any basics in subject(school) and had no one to train me (a kid needs to be taught A B C). I got lost in the traffic.
Our kids should'nt have to go through what we went through. They need direction. We need to learn from our mistakes and injuries, and teach them so that they will have a better life.
It easy to destroy a life but very difficult to give life.
Woman, carrying your child nine months is a very easy task but making a successful person out of your child makes you the MOTHER.

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

advice

we live in a very dramatic world. all of us are different.lately i was talking with a friend of mine and he was correcting my mistakes. he is a very nice person and i respect him a lot. what he was saying was very true. he told me, jessa, u are still living as though in college. u talk friendly, u ridicule others like we are all in college. people are not like that anymore they think more than twice before saying anything. yes its true. now we cannot find anyone that friendly. the best times are the times we had in our college days. now we cannot talk to anyone. most of us put on a mask and talk only those things that makes no sensse. no one is ready to help unless they have something to gain. people loose their sense of humour as they grow old. he was teling me thats he was sorry that he teased me when in a gathering. my god! i didnt even remember that he teased me then. i never thot of it but he remembered. it never bothered me at all. i took it in a very nice sense. i wish i meet friends who are like those in my college days. the irony in all this is that my friends are all the same no one has changed so much even today, yes we have a lot of worries as a life pakage,but the others whom i meet as i travel around seems to be very very sensitive. may be its the crowd i choose, that is wrong or maybe its me. if a girl tells a joke then its wrong, but if a man does the same he is smart. ya i know i shud be cautious when talking.

we are all so uptight. we dont mingle with others. in the next place i move to, at work and else, i hope and pray i meet people who are more free and happy than those people who are all sensitive to all that is said sportively and analyze on each and every word that is said.